Well I recieved a call from Tabia the other day and recieved an official invitation to join...."The Cult." So, yea, I'm a member now, whatever that might mean. Thanks Tabia for calling me, love ya lots! ;).

Sorry I'm never on here everyone...when I do get on the internet I have to go to the library and usually then I only ever check my email, search random things or get on my myspace account. Even then I never update it or anything. I have found the joys of blogging on that however, so thats pretty cool.

As of now, I'm still unemployed but I am very dilligently looking for work, so hopefully we'll see some "fruits of that labor" very soon. I hope everyone comes to see the show, "Journey", at the Glema June 2nd. This is the show that I, and many others at Madisonville Dance Centre have worked so very hard on. So, yea...you should all come.

I'm just now about to start typing up the letter that I'm going to send to people asking for their suppport to send me to Butler. For those of you who don't know, I was accepted into a five week program this summer at Butler University in Indianapolis. I'm very excited. Over six hours of dance a day, six days a week....wow, I can't wait. I know it'll be alot of work, but it'll be alot of work that I love. So, yea...this summer will be awesome...I just have to get there first, hence the letter. So, yea...going to get this typed up and hopefully mailed by Monday. Yes, I will have it mailed by Monday. So, please, everyone just pray for me, wish me luck, send me good vibes or whatever it is that you do....just please do it and know I'm very appreciative. Okay, well love ya guys lots....take care and hopefully I'll see ya soon!

P.S.
I'm going to try to get on here more often but if you're really interested in my life, try checking my mysace. You can get there by clicking on the "myspace" link on my page. I should hopefully be blogging more regulary. Also, if you have myspace, add me! It's really kind of cool. Okay, C-ya!

~BHP~

I wish people could just say what they felt....never hold back.
*UNLEASH YOUR ESSENCE*

There is so much I want to say, confess to others, but I can't.
*WHY NOT?!!?*

I'm afraid of rejection, afraid of hurting. Maybe if I don't say anything I won't hurt.
*BUT I DO!*

I do hurt because I don't say anything. I don't say what I feel and that hurts me...maybe even more than the sting of rejection. Because, in a sense, I'm not being rejected by someone else, but rather...myself.
*WHAT IS MY WORTH?*

I want to shout out loud all the things I feel...
I want to be held, and comforted when I just can't carry on...
I want to cry in the arms of a friend, and feel loved...

I want to be able to laugh and truly feel acceptance. How can I be accepted if I let no one all the way in?...if I refuse to be 100% honest with anyone, however could they know me, all of me.!?
*ACCEPT ME NOT*

I love all my friends, with all that I am I love them, but no matter the love that overflows within me, I can never bring myself to let them all the way in.
*YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME*

It pains me to not be honest with my friends, to not let them truly know the truths that are applicable to my life.
*I'M SO SORRY*

Never forget, I love you all...There are some friends I'm closer with, talk to more often; but my love remains true for those I don't see as often, or have the chance to talk to.
*LOVE IS THE ONE TRUTH I HOLD FOR ALL TO SEE*

One day, I will come to better know my truths. I desire to let you all in, completely and fully in, so that you may see all that I am. So that I might, unleash my true essence.
*SET ME FREE*

Well, I went to my very first "Socratic Society" meeting. Everyone was really nice, laid back, and it was comfortable being there. The only negative thing I have to say, I didn't understand *ONE* word that anyone said in there. I think the only thing I did understand is when I walked in, I was offered some pizza. That is about it though, wow, I'm smart. At the end of the meeting Dan lord_atticus' was like, so...did everyone enjoy this, are you all happy with where we are going with this. I was all like, well...to be honest, I didn't understand one word that any of you said, *lol*. It was all cool though. Arghh!!! I can't figure out to use live journal. I was trying to make Dan's name be where you can click on it, but alas, I am an idiot. Much love to everyone! BHP

I will owe Jana $30-60.
I will owe Tracy $60
I owe Joseph $10
Gas = $80
Cell Phone = $70
Loan Payment = $81
Credit Card Payment = $20

Because of my cut in hours, :( , I will probally not make enough to cover all of that, $351. So, this sucks. But, oh well...I will have to start working somewhere on the side. I thought about going back to work at Move Gallery beside Krogers...I loved that job, like it was fun. My former boss already told me I can have it back if I want it, I just have to let her know whats up. But, I don't know...with college, and dance, and voice lessons, and theathre, and my first job...could I really have a second job and still maintain what amount of sanity I currently hold on to?...I don't know, I just don't know. I do know that I'm going to need some extra money. Maybe I can get a side job, baby-sitting here and there. I'm good with kids, adn that would be something that I could do alright. I don't know....if anyone has any ideas, let me know...I'm all ears.

HOW CAN I MAKE SOME MONEY?!?!?!?!

***You will only get out of life what you ask of it...life is simply what you make it! Today, I create a masterpiece***

Well, sitting here at work and I'm listening to a Whitney Houston song, "I Will Always Love You."
Listening to this song, for some reason, really makes me want to cry......
I mean, the song itself is a wonderful song, but Whitney's voice...man, does she ever do this song justice.

I just had my lunch...some multi grain wheat thins. They were okay, but I could of ate something else for sure. I'm really thirsty...I don't have any drinks at home. Well, I do, just not any that sound good right now. I have a ton of 100% grapefruit juice, I heard it was supposed to help you lose weight, and then I have like 4 gallons of water. So, I actually have plenty of drinks, just not any that sound very appealing right now.

I can't wait till I get off...I'm so bored. Tonight, I will go to the dance studio and help Jana clean up. I think Bekah and Joseph are coming down as well...not for sure. If they come down it is almost certain that Devin and Dustin will join them. So, hopefully if everyone shows up, we'll get alot done tonight. Well, I'm going to get off here for just a little while and attempt to get some Psychology work done. Laters!

Well I'm at college right now, sitting here in the computer lab for a whole other hour, waiting for my history class. So, I thought I should come and write in live journal. I have a new goal for the next month, to sell-sell-sell! For Jana, and the girls of Madisonville Dance Center, I am selling yummy cookies and pastries that will aid them in their trip to N.Y.C. to perform live in the Macy's Day Parade. So, this is a big fundraiser that I am trying to help them with at this time. If anyone is interested in purchasing some cookies, please, *PLEASE* feel free to call my cell phone at anytime. If it goes to my voicemail leave me a message and I will get back with you a.s.a.p.. I have many different types of cookies and pastrys for sell and again, they're all going towards a good cause.
Also...I have some cookbooks for sell....cookbooks you ask, yes! cookbooks! I'm selling these cookbooks for the Glema Mahr Center for the Arts. All proceeds go to better fit the Glema Center to serve those with disabilities visiting our center. Not only are these cookbooks compiled with many tasty recipes, but they also feature some extra features. Such as, they have a paige explaing stage directions, and lots of other theatre goodies. There is also a section giving examples as how to experience "fine dining." So, if you would like to experience fine dining, with a one of a kind cookbook and our scrumptious gourmet cookies please, *PLEASE* call me. My Cell phone is 270-836-3407. So, give me a call and I would be happy to serve you in any way possible.

Well, I'm here at work, on the phone with Jackie. She is threatning to beat her dog, lol..she's fixin to kill her. By the way, her dogs name is Mya. She's just a puppy, lol..she's cute. We're going walking tonight...as we have been for the past day or so. Well, I'm watching a movie tonight...Kung Fu Hustle, very good movie. Man, my back is like really killin me. I wish I was rich, if so I would go to the Chiopractor(I have really good spelling, lol), cuz I for sure could use someone rubbin on my back, or atleast poping it. I think tonight, for supper, I'm going to make a salad. Since I bought groceries I actualy have food to eat. I have a bag of salad mix, a bag of spinach, 4 tomatoes, 6 cucumbers and a carton of mushrooms. Oh, I also have a bag of carrots. So I can peel the carrots, slice cucumbers and tomatoes, top it off with mushrooms and have a very nice salad. I have Ranch and Blue cheese dressing, which should I use? (I also have Itialian dressing but I'm saving that for my pasta salad later in the week).

OMG...I'm in love. Clay Aiken is so awesome. I saw him in concert like a year or two ago, and he was amazing, like he made me cry. Right now I'm sitting at work listening to his music at his website. www.clayaiken.com He is such a talented person, I wish I could sound half as good as he does, like omg...his voice is frekin orgasmic. *lol*

Can't wait 'till I get home, I'm starving...
BHP

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These women are so awesome...I had the pleasure of meeting all of them like a year ago. Everyone should like, I dunno...order a cd. I have one of their cd's...it's really good. Very, very...Inspired. Their music is *so* inspired! Well, anyway...go visit.

I'm starving!!! I'm getting off of work in half an hour, heck yea!

Wow....life is so funny...
I just went shopping, spent a ton of money on shit that i really probally don't need, but whatevs...I guess I should eat...I lost two pounds, *yay*! I now weigh 153...I would like to get down to 145...but thats just me wishin....Well, I'm over here at Josh's, we're about to eat, and I'm actually hungry, so thats good, I guess. LOL...I love his mom so much...I'm wearing a black t-shirt that says "Fat People Are Harder To Kidnapp" and Josh's mom looked at me and says, well you know, thats true...Because it would be harder to put them in your car. I laughed, it was so funny. I really do love his mom, she's so cool. Well, I need to get off of here, there is a man selling crappy stuff in Josh's driveway and I need to go meet him, lol. Well, 'holla back. School starts in one week.
Brandon P.

Harry Potter Personality Quiz by Pirate Monkeys Inc.

Well, I have finally signed up for Live Journal...after hearing all my friends talk about it I thought it was the only thing to do. So, what do I do now?...like, do I just write stuff and people actually care to read it? Well I'm at work now for all of those who are reading this; I'm at work and it sucks. The job is actually not bad, I just wish I knew what the hell I was doing. Oops! Can you say "hell" on this site? I hope I'm not like banished now, that would kind of suck. Hey, incase anyone was wondering about my name, yes...I do take ballet. I love my ballet class, it's sick ass man...I mean, for realz. I think if everyone took ballet the world would be a much greener, peaceful and all around beautiful place. So, next time you feel like killin someone just think, what would a ballerina do?!!? I am fixin' to enroll into my second year of ballet at Madisonville Dance Center under the one, Miss. Jana Bowles. I also hope to enroll in my third year of Jazz at the dance studio. With all luck, I will have enough time to also take a weekly ballet class from the Evansville Dance Theatre. That would so kick ass, big ass at that my friend(s). Oh yea, guess what?! Tomorrow I have an appt. to go 'n register for college, omg...I'm so nervous about this, like...this is a really big step for me. So, that's good...really good. I'm looking foward to this a whole lot, but that doesn't mean I still can't be nervous. So, I will have to try 'n remember to write in here, because I know you all want to know, to let you know how my registration went.
Well, just incase anyone cares, my name is Brandon Patterson, 18 years old and I live at home with dad. I'm actually about to turn 19 and I don't live with my dad really, just in his garage. *lol* It's a garage apt. which is really-really cool. I have my one big room which is my living room/bedroom, a kitchen, bathroom and a nice sized closet. So, it's all cool. My friend Sarah Shaw just got back in from her lunch break and she was like, what are you doin, I was all like, writing in my live journal(I was really attempting to sound cool and then...) she was all like, oh..that's so gay. LOL!!! So yea, that's funny. Anyway, I probally should get back to work, or lack there of. I'm actually going to read my book called "The Healer's Manual: A Beginging Guide to Energy Thearpies." Anyway, I'll "holla back"